Think what you want. This is a book without persuasive intent.
There is no intended emotional reaction to the text that lies before
you. As a matter of fact, I as the author am unsure of my own
reaction to this book. There are many ideas and opinions presented
that to some may be controversial. To that accord, I am not
concerned about reactions, unless they are informed and thought
out. Religion, politics, capitalism, socialism, nihilism, tradition,
culture, mental illness, and dating are a few of the themes that are
touched on. There are curse words in this book.
If you have not noticed, this is not Chapter One, this is an intro or a
prologue. I simply named it Chapter One so that people would read
it. Personally, I never read the intro, so I am holding readers to the
same standards I hold myself to.
To be acquainted my name is Jason and I have written a book, this
book to be specific. You’ll learn about me as this book goes on. Life
of a Giant is a collection of short essays, narrative, and poetry;
meant to show a different perspective. It’s a chance to see the
world through a different lens, I guess my lens, but the purpose is
to understand someone else’s logic and understanding.
Personally, I put little value into the idea of structure, my biggest
complaint is the overuse of simple structure for comfort in all
aspects of human life. There is a disingenuous nature that lies in
the makeup of accepted structures. Most structure and order reside
to assure safety and comfort, but at what costs? The rationalization
for all structures as efficient and unquestioned is the reason why all
suburbs look the same, why everyday people follow routines, why we accept being exposed to 5,000 advertisements a day, and America inexplicably operates in a two-party system. Structure is often a facade.
Consider a sporting event, there is little benefit to the individual in
standing and singing the National Anthem before a game, yet every
time we do because the order of events is structured that way.
Why? Why not in the middle of the game? Why not at the end?
Why do we rise from our seats? Why not balance on one leg? Why
sporting events? Why not before work? Why not at 1 pm every
day? Why at all?
It certainly benefits a nationalist mindset, which in turn provides
comfort to a bureaucracy attempting to control 323.1 million people,
who have convinced businesses that America is a stable market to
operate in. That’s why the national anthem is held in such high
regards, the national anthem really is just a song. But the context
decides what it really means depending on who you are and where
you are, your “If's and When’s.”
If I sing the National Anthem alone in my car, there is no context, it
means nothing. If it’s playing alone in my car and I am seated
wearing a hat, but not singing, it means nothing. Yet, if I remain
seated wearing a hat and refuse to sing at a baseball game, it
means something. Don’t even get me started on other countries
national anthems. The structure of events and physical entities
serve purposes intrinsically; questioning structure is as fundamental
as questioning context.
You can see this applied to politics, Americans put such a large
focus on changing the pieces within the structure, but rarely alter
the structure. In reality, the election of a President is not nearly as
important as perceived, if the same lobbyists and special interest
groups have their hands in the game as always. Lobbyist and
criminal Paul Manafort had connections to both Hillary Clinton and
Donald Trump, the people involved in and around Washington do
not disappear when the torch is handed off from party to party.
Lobbyists don’t sell their houses and move out of Washington when
party lines flip, they rebrand. The structure that breeds
misinformation and corruption is more the problem, rather than the
interchangeable /electable pieces.
This book is intentionally structured in an unorthodox manner so
that pieces can be read individually and/or as a story. The mix of
poetry and narrative is done mainly because it provides a flow that I
find pleasing and mirrors how I think. Narratives if too long drag and
can get stale and pedantic, but poetry gets old after a while,
especially to someone like myself who does not particularly love
This book is meant to ease the minds of the like-minded, and to
elicit thought in those who are not like-minded.
If you disagree, great.
If you agree, great.
None of that is the point.
I’ve been thinking about what it is I want to do with my life.
But nothing seems to be right.
Not with me, the sciences, or the world; nothing is what it seems
The seams of the fabric of society often lie to me.
A public unaware.
Where do I find solace in a place so unpolished?
I worry that solace and relief are cheap, useless fixations for a
nation striving for comfort.
Our main concerns, are mostly to learn and burn calories. Little
worry about a place to sleep or a mouth to feed.
We should be comfortable in the most humble of settings, I’m
betting that you want more.
I’m sure, because it’s in our nature. Just like the need for a savior
or our outlandish behavior.
I’ll be fine in due time, we all will be.
The temporary makeup of our days pays dividends, the bad stuff
Then something else begins.
Whether it be the beginning of an opportunity, puberty, or
something else new to me.
The chance to end one thing and start another is always here.
Fear is the only thing in your way today.
Or any day to be completely candid.
Let’s manage to forget the baggage and move on.
Onto something brand new.
Can you turn the page?